The divine ordeal of terror ended when I finally understood that there wasn’t a narrative on reality more solid than any other. And it was just afterwards that my heart was pierced and I couldn’t but fall in love.
For many years I identified the ocean of love I became surrounded by when I embraced confusion with the “Angel”. And it stayed. In occasional, scattered messages. A wink. A clue. Guiding me onwards.
As I made myself familiar with the rules of the now almost visible astral realm underlying reality, I realized that emotional intensity and willpower were key to manifestation. But it was the “ocean of love” that I wanted to experience again. However, manifesting things with the aid of magick might not be the best path there. After all, I had only reached that endless ocean when I had finally emptied myself.
Yet if what is manifested through the astral is a reflection of what is inside, a different point of view emerges. Wasn’t that ocean a reflection of an inner unknown self, seen only once the filters were clean? What if instead of an external Angel, it was a sparkle of the beauty that you might project if you work hard enough to become the Sun?
Melek Taus is the androgynous and bi-sexual Peacock Angel (Ruling Spirit) of the Moon, the Kabbalistic Sphere of Yesod, and worshipped by the Yazidis (c.f. “Yesod”).
Since s/he rules the lunar sphere, s/he is prince/ss of the lunar and sublunar spheres.
“The Peacock Angel, as world-ruler, causes both good and bad to befall
individuals, and this ambivalent character is reflected in myths of his
own temporary fall from God’s favour, before his remorseful tears
extinguished the fires of his hellish prison and he was reconciled with
God”.
The sphere of Yesod is associated with imagination, dreams, the “unconscious” and the underworld. The Hebrew word סוד (”Yesod”) means “foundation”. One interpretation of this name is that Imagination is the Foundation on which the Kingdom of the Four Elements and Matter (Malkuth) is built.
Commenting circa 1919 on the first chapter of “The Book of the Law” (Liber AL vel Legis), Aleister Crowley wrote “Aiwaz
is not as I had supposed a mere formula, like many angelic names, but
is the true most ancient name of the God of the Yezidis, and thus
returns to the highest Antiquity. Our work is therefore historically
authentic, the rediscovery of the Sumerian Tradition”.
Artwork credits:
“False Color” image of the moon taken by the Galileo probe in 1992.
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